I don't know how

But my life has drastically changed. Actually I do know how. I left Julian and met someone new. He doesn't love me but he says he's falling for me. No wait we were drunk. I am utterly terrified to remove the guard from my heart, because that shit hurts like hell when it breaks. This new person has a name. And a face. He gives me everything I need and everything I have ever wanted in a man. He is sexy and powerful and is the opposite of me but we get along. We had an extremely intense moment where we were kissing and he told me he loved me. I got angry because i know he doesnt. He walked away from me and I sat on the hood of a car and cried. 30 seconds passed before we both collided at the same time. I tried to speak but he said "don't even try,you can't explain this feeling ". we both cried and he held me in his arms. It sounds disgustedly cliche and maybe it is, but I've never felt anything like it. I hope he stays. I wanna fall in love with him. Even if it hurts like hell.